Money which makes me today as a helpless heart

I woke up this mornig and opend my door, out of the blues I met a woman who was carrying a lof catalogues of an orphan and oldage home. She asked me to donate something to their organization. I just gave the little money what I have, If I could have more money I would donate to her.Then I moved to office by finishing all my mandatory things and I was also pennyless but somehow I withdrew some money from my account by visiting more than 3 ATM's.

After that I entered into a hotel with hungry and I've finished my dosa very quickly in the eagerness to go office while giving my bill I've seen a "Handsome guy aged about 7-8 years, who is leading his life with lot of struggles, but he has a sparkling eyes". He asked the woman who is a owner of that hotel "Madam, Please give me some food to eat" then she said "give me the money" while giving change to me. I observed his face carefully. He said " I don't have money and I don't have anything except hungry and povert, Please help me madam" then she replied him jugglurley " No money no Food ". I was observing all things by getting ready to go my office. Though I was having some money to buy a little breakfast to the guy I was just obscanded from that situation with mercyless humanity.

While I was in my journey to office, my body was driving my bike and my heart was stayed with the child and my Mind is questioning me " why you didn't help that kid eventhough you're having money", then on spur of moment I drifted my bike in the quest of that Poor handsome guy. But I was unable to find him. But that boy face is roaming in my head saying that " You're having money with helpless heart".

I'm feeling convicted for the thing what I did.

~~~What can I do now? rather than blaming myself ~~~~~~

"If you want to do a good thing, do it immediatley"

With Sad~~

Sainath

Human being